30 years old... Seriously.

This time next week I will be 30.

I would have had my awesome joint 80s school disco party and I will be another year older.

I am not ready to be thirty. For one I don't feel like I have been on this earth for thirty years. I still feel in my mid twenties but that is not the case.

At thirty I am suppose to be married, or had my first child/second or a full time job and own a house, even if it is just renting.

I have none of those things.

I still work my part-time weekend job.

I live with my boyfriend at his parents house

I have no kids and still don't feel the want to have kids yet.

I thought I would feel that way by now but I just don't.

Is there something wrong with me? 

I am happy with my life as it is. Sure, I would love to have my own home and have more money in a better job but with this job I can at least dedicate serious time to my craft business.

I have big plans for Wylde Embers. I am more excited about that than the thought of having a child! To me Wylde Embers Pyrography is like a newborn enfant. Something I want to nurture and grow. This year has been the play stage, gaining the knowledge and skills needed for pyrography and next year will be the growth of my business. That is what I really want to do.

My website:  http://wyldeembers.wix.com/wyldeembers

I know many women are leaving it later to have a family but with that comes the risks and dangers. The later I leave it, the bigger the age gap between me and the baby.

I worry about it a lot but I can't let that be the reason to have a child! It has to be the very fibre of my being, what I want most in the world and right now... I don't feel that it is.

I know that my family are waiting for the grandchildren to come. I feel like I am letting them down as they are also are getting older and our family is getting smaller.

Again, I can not use that as an excuse to have something so important, so life changing, as a child!

Where am I going with this post? I don't know but it's thoughts and feelings that just needed to come out.

The next post will be about my 30th party and will be a lot more upbeat I promise.

Thanks if you have taken the time to read this.

Until next time!

Rochester! Sweeps! Morris! Faeries! Oh my!

What a blast of a bank holiday that was!

Another Beltane has come and gone and with it the Jack in the Green's have been on parade. Last year I went to the Hasting's Jack in the Green festival but this year we decided to go along for all three days of the Sweeps festival which is a wonderful gathering of Morris dancers and some great folk bands.

On Saturday we met up with Esther and Martin to check out the faerie event that I would be exhibiting at on the Monday. Here we got to catch up with the wonderful faerie artist Linda Ravenscroft and the beautiful Bryony and Bruce Whistlecraft with their Woodland Wild elf locks stall.

In the afternoon we meet up with Celtic Moon members, Breaca, Vandrake, Midnightstar and Feena who had come all the way from Norfolk for the event. It was lovely to finally meet!

         Celtic Moon sisters. Photo from Feena and used with permission.

On the Sunday we went back to Rochester and met up with some of the Morris dancers we befriended during last years folk week and enjoy the music on offer. In the evening I got my gothic faerie gear on for a Faery rock night with some great bands including Lightwish, a Nightwish tribute act. Suffice to say I knew all the words and sang along.

Monday was an early start to the Royal Function rooms and set up my Wylde Embers stall. I have done a few stalls in my time but this was the first time under the Wylde Embers banner and I was a bit nervous on how I would be received.

I had no worries. Everyone who came to look at my stall only had kind words to say about my work and when I told them I had only just started pyrography in February they were stunned.

I made a few sells which I was really pleased with.

In the afternoon was for me the highlight of the festival, the parade. 

I have done the parade before as part of Celtic Moon but this time I was part of the faerie entourage.

Sporting wings made by the talented Twinkle. 

http://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/TwistedTwinkle

Faeries on parade!

The weather during the weekend was glorious and I had a great time but seemed over all too quickly.

Wylde Embers

Hi everyone!

Sorry for the lack of blog posts of late. Had a lot of personal issues to sort out over the last couple of weeks.

I have also been keeping busy doing my pyrography. I have now created a Facebook page for my wood burning which I have called Wylde Embers.

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Wylde-Embers-Pyrography/502518209783842

I have created several boxes including a Elen of the ways box and a Avalon tarot box for Zee.

Elen of the ways box featuring a doe. 

Zee asked for a box to keep her Avalon oracle cards safe and asked that it included images associated with Avalon.

I got busy sketching out some ideas on paper which I then drew on to the box. As I worked more ideas for images came to mind and the box turned out to be one of the easiest designs I had made. I look forward to next weekends moot when I can give it to her.

This was based on a image her husband took of her greeting the sunrise.

Have also been creating totem key rings and I made a key ring for one of my work colleagues of his pet dog Diesel.

I have been a digital artist for over ten years, I love creating art in this medium but I had a hard time explaining to others how the images are created. With pyrography nothing needs to be explained. You can easily tell that all the markings have been created using a hot tool.

Everyone seems to really like my new art medium and I am loving my new craft. You can find me busy burning designs almost every day and I am getting commissions.

One such commission was for a key ring featuring a antlered goddess form and a copy of a box I had already made but had sold before.

Also I have been busy studying for my Celtic Moon pagan project. The purpose of the project is to dedicate time to explore our spirituality and perhaps look at other paths that perhaps have always intrigued us but never been more than a passing interest.

For me I have chosen to look at shamanism in it's many disguises but mostly the use of drums in shamanism. I will explain this further in a future blog post.

Until next time!